for months, i've played this game.
Acting like it doesn't hurt.
Each time i hear his name,
and ignoring what's inside of me
pretending i've moved on.
As if the feelings i once had
for him are somehow gone.
Spending each and every day
with happiness and laughs.
Forgetting all our memories
avoiding our photographs.
But last night when i saw him
for the first time since he left,
my heart stopped for a moment.
I couldn't catch my breath
When suddenly it hit me
as the tears started to flow.
That even after all this time
i just can't let him go.
There's nth much for me to post.
There's training tmr.
But I'm only going for 1 hr becos I'm having Amaths class.
No need to run that much.
Trina and Yuhling only come for 30mins, how nice!
I had been thinking these few days.
Wherever I go, I saw the number 14.
And again, It happen to be the expiry date for milk packets. -___-
What is all these manzxzxz?
Why everything seems to come back when you missed call me?
-_____-
I just miss those happy things, miss the first few months.
Esp the first few weeks, and my Birthday last year.
Know why did I love you so much before?
It's because you show me how much you love me, and how much you didn't want to let go.
And most importantly, you cried again and again for me.
I still rmb every moment clearly.
I feel like calling you up, and if you asked why did i called you.
I would answer the way like you, I don't know too.
But I can't show how weak I'm infront of you.
And I know, I admit I failed to be a good girlfriend to you back then.
I swear I'm crying now. -___-
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
No, I can't be thinking of all these.
JULIA TAN, WAKE UP!
